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If you really take the time to look at the beauty life has and you break it down and forget about all the wrong and think about all the good it holds it really can be a sight. The beauty I see that life can have are, people having kids. It's like your bringing a new life into this world and its your responsibility to take of it and show love to it. I mean knowing how I was a kid, I was a wild thing I always was playing around with stuff seeing how it worked, getting mud all over me, messing around in my dad's workshop making new things I thought he would like and all that stuff. I made such messes and scared my parents a lot. I was a handful but it seemed like no matter what I did and how angry they would get at me it's like wow they still show their love. Or did you ever go to the mall or any public places and just watch couples (not stalking of course) but I mean did you ever look at a couple and wonder why that person loves the other or why that person picked that person. I mean what brings them together that they know they are right for each other. I just think wow, thats awesome. Another thing is, did you ever wonder what it would be like without your friends. I think my life would be very boring you know. My friends just bring so much life and excitment to me. One thing that made me smile is when I went to philly with my old youth group we went there and fixed up a run down house and made it really pretty, but we did it for people that didn't have a home and that got out of using drugs and wanted to change their lives. I thought you know, even though it doesn't seem like much but we just helped change that persons life. It just brings delight to my life. You know one thing I like about our school, is that people are so caring. This one boy dropped his books and he was kinda slow but everyone just stopped and helped him pick up his books and its like what a nice thing. I remember when I was in middle school I would always go out back to this pile of wood my dad had stocked up and I would sit there and just watch the sunset and see all the elegant colors and be like God you are just too good to me. I would just forget all the wrongs and forget everything I was mad about and just look upon the good. Sometimes thats just what you need to do when you think about all the wrongs in your life just think about all the rights..
I'm sorry for the person I became I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change I'm ready to try never become that way again Cause who I am hates who I've beenCause who I am hates who I've been
::So I was looking at pictures that are on my computer and I found so many pictures and memories that I'd forgotten about and all the great times that I had and all the awesome people that have made my life so worth while::
 Kara and I  Erika and Myself  Me and Quag  Tylor and I back in the summer between 9/10 grade.  Myself on the beach in california two summers ago<3 I miss it there.  Dan, Andrew, and Nate at Gov. Dick.. Oh boy they are crazy  Joe and I.  Ash Bash and I playing  Me & Dave  Ashton making me get a tub last summer.  All my friends from Dove.  Some people from Tiff and my summer party.  David and I  Tiff and I  Me, Britt & Dak  Nigel & I  Brad, Myself, And Bethany  Britt and Kim  Me & Danielle after the ABR concert  Me, Danielle & Tiff  Tiff, Tylar, Me & Danielle  Nanna's Christmas party a year ago. (2004)  Christmas 2005  My sister & I  Brown hair with blonde streaks  Me with dark hair.  Janell and I at my sisters baby shower  Amber's baby shower  People at the shower  More people at the shower | | |
| So yeah, it's like 1 in the morning and I can't go to bed because I'm not tired so I decided to write. Hehe, lots of fun. So the weekend was pretty much fun. But I missed Janell Grace Roach like mad. But she had a lot of fun on her retreat which is a good thing. But anyways I went bowling with Derek (my buddy) Nick, Alex, Bear, and Abi, and saw Marcus, Dak, and Jeff which they hung out with us at the bowling alley. Oh my, those boys are hilarious, D-rock "Amanda put on the belt." Me: What belt. D-rock the belt of winning. Haha that boy is crazy. Oh and Marcus and Nick going at it to see who could speed bowl faster, hate to say it Nick but I think Darkness is faster. Oh my goodness Kara Landis is the freakin coolest, funniest, awesomest girl around. She is always so much fun to hang out with. I realized that our classes are coming to an end soon, which means I'm gonna miss all my crazily amazing gym class girls, Kara S, Britt, and Danielle. Which means I'm going to miss my freakin awesome math class with my buddies, Tylar, Dak, Tiffany, Kelsie and Mr Burkholder. Which means I'm going to miss my mad sweet video production group, Bridget, Shawn, Amanda S, Amanda, and Jill. Choir is okay because it is getting switched to advisory but I don't really care for that class anyways, but I'll miss Tiff, Courtney, Kara L, Janell, Tylor, Nick, Taylor, Gina, Abi, Nigel, and Jamie being 4th block.
My Dad's birthday is tomorrow, well today tecnically. So HAPPY 50TH BIRTHDAY DAD!! You are such an amazing dad and you have taught me so much and I couldn't of asked for a better father than you. You always make me laugh when I'm upset, you always tell me I'm going to be okay when I feel like I'm not, and most of all I have fun dancing crazy with you Dad. I love you and no matter how old I get I'll always be your little girl, and no matter what guy comes into my life you'll always be my #1 man<3
Awww my daddy on his 50th birthday <3
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| So, I have been thinking about my future, and what I want to do with it, since next year will be my last year. I've been praying a lot and so this is what I feel like God is calling me to do. I would like to go to CTC next year for cosmetology to get my license in that, if I'm accepted. I would also like to go on a missions trip for 5 1/2 months, to get closer to God and build a foundation with Him. My plans would then be to come back, go and work in a salon and then go to college to teach 3rd or 4th grade students. Sounds like a lot, I know, but deep down inside at this time I feel it's right for my life.
Behold I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land; for I will not leave you until I have done what I have spoken to you. -Genesis 28:15
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| I've been thinking and what I've been thinking about is why is it that people always feel they need to have someone to make themselves feel complete. It's like everywhere you go you always hear people complaining about not having someone, and if they don't have someone it's like ahh I have to find someone. I don't know why. I mean you have the rest of your life to find someone. I mean where is it really going to go, probably no where. But when the time is right and God brings that person to you, won't it be awesome to be like man, I've been waiting for you all my life. Now, I'm definately not being like don't go out with anyone. There are some really cute couples out there and you can tell they are so in love. Now, I do have to admit a couple months ago I was like I need a boyfriend, I feel so empty. Because I guess it's because I had a boyfriend for 2 years, which I believe definately wasn't worth it. But still going from having someone there to nothing was a big stretch for me. Then I met someone which I really had feelings for and I always got butterflies in my stomach. I thought wow, I never thought I could feel this way, and I felt like I could tell him anything, but like life, things just happen, and I guess they happen for a reason. But thats the beauty of it all isn't it. Just waiting to see where God takes you next, as my friend Derek would say. I met this one guy a couple weeks ago and he seems like such a nice guy, I feel like I can tell him anything, and it's almost like talking to myself. He's an awesome new friend. But like I guess, I believe in having great friends, and building off that friendship. Cause then you really know who that person is inside and out. See thats where I made my big mistake when I went into that relationship for two years. I didn't know the kid, which I should of done first, then I wouldn't of gotten into that situation and wouldn't of wasted my time. But, it's a new year to make many changes. But anyways my point was after you know that person inside and out, then you can see if you could see yourself with that person. I mean, I do believe in relationships, but only relationships that aren't fake ones. Like saying I love you to someone you just met 3 weeks ago. To me saying I love you, is a big thing. I would have to really know that person and really feel it to say it. But thats me. But anyways, sorry for rambling on and on. I just needed to get that all out.
Pictures of Awesome people.
Kara and Britt. Word.
Josh and Wookie. Couldn't live without them.
Proof that little roach goes through my purse all the time. Haha, I heart her.
I miss this boy.
Mr. B. Coolest math teacher, to bad he hates pictures and wouldn't let me get a picture of him.
Myself and Kayla.
Sweet hair that Janell did.
Tylor and Taylor, Cool kids around the block.
Tiff Tylar and I. We rock the math class.
The things Janell makes me do.
My awesome friend Tiffers
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| ::Update::
Tiffany's party was awesome. Today is the first day of 2006, time to make the best of it.
:-:Picture's from her party:-:
Some People In The Kitchen, Just chillin
Courtney and I, Oh boy
Courtney and Tiffany, Cuties
Derek with a kitchen sponge, Haha Oh man Derek
Courtney and Alex<<Aww how cute>>
Tylar and Nate, Gangster Boys
Lukeeee, Aka Baby Bird Head
Nick and Alex playing video games, boys will be boys.
Tylar & me
Lauren, such a sweetheart
Courtney and Myself again.
Before the party..
Kent in my cowboy hat, what a kid haha.
Jordan straightening his hair with my straight iron, haha what a girl just kidding
Me and my rad brother Josh, Man I'm gonna miss him when he leaves.
My awesome dog Wookie, in her santa hat I made her :)
So, where to begin.... This break has been pretty rad. Christmas was
awesome having all my family together for once. I get to stay up late
at night and sleep in, which need I say is absolutley AMAZING! Went to
the mall yesterday with Tiffany, great experience. Tonight I had some
people over for a movie night! So much fun, I still don't understand
that movie, but it's alright. Tomorrow is our christmas party for
cheerleading. I'm excited. Well I think I'm done writing. Have an
awesome rest of the break everyone.
:+:Pictures:+:
Nick, Derek, Alex. The coolest warwick boys around.
Me trying to be ghetto in a cowboy hat.
My awesome twin.
Courtney and Wookie.
Tim and Britty
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